( Poetically in my own way~a trip through time for I light my way….)
When I was young, the days were different.
When I was young, I seemed to know things, I seemed to hear things, I seemed to be lost in a world of my own. Others would look and shake their heads, rarely understanding my introverted ways, my incessant thought & need to know ‘why.’
When I was young, I remember loneliness and one good friend. I remember the pain of being misunderstood and misled to believe in others fears and thoughts.
As I grew, a steady theme followed me as I look back now.
The struggle, the pain, the loneliness and sadness I hid so well.
“Pretend you are strong, be a leader!” I would recite.
“I don’t need them anyhow, I am usually right?”
Somehow it seemed I would keep on trying. Finding love, finding peace, the light kept shining. Even in its slightest of ways, I saw you peaking your vibrant rays. I know you are there, so ‘thank you, anyways.’
Then one day after much too much loss, I thought I would lie down, forget it and toss,
all that I had for I didn’t really care,
then you were there, your clean, bright stare.
Shining again as you always had, when things were the toughest you made me feel glad,
to see you once more, as you reminded me so, I am here for a purpose, “so get up and let’s go.”
I wiped my tears, and picked myself up. I am blessed that you saved me and you never gave up.
You knew of my essence, my strength, and my path, you healed my pains and gave me a bath.
For it was there in your shower of love and of light, ‘I know am whole now, for the first time in my life.’
I look back now, on those awkwardly lonely times,
I know it was a path that I just had to climb. For each step has brought me closer to you, my beautiful light, my wonderful you.
I cannot show you exactly how much, the depth of my gratitude for your every light touch. You touched my heart and you sprinkle my life,
For I would not be, if you were not that bright.
You have showed me the way more times than I know,
you shower me with love and you encourage my growth.
So as I sit here and write of my woes, its not all bad as the evening slows.
Just know that my love for you is as bright, as the stars that guide me into the night.
They shine for you, as they shine me,
their steadfast presence and loyalty,
keeps me balanced and grateful to know
that I am still here and its time to ‘LET GO.’
Time to awaken & lay down the dark,
breathe in your light essence and hit the spark,
For a new day is dawning, and its lively and quick.
We are all here to stay and glow and lick,
the wounds of the past and weary dark.
Know every pain make us who we are,
I validate it all and will never compare.
You light my way, today and tomorrow,
I am grateful for your presence I release all sorrow.
I am grateful for who you are, so step out of your sludge,
for it is not really you, its only a grudge. Let it go, lie it down, release it all,
A slight detour you took, we all take the fall.
Now look up, we are here as we always have been.
Loving you, guiding you, and some may have seen,
us gently asking for your greatest sight,
to see what we do, for YOU are the light.
We will follow you, and help you, and watch you try,
remember the light, remember the sky!
To this new day dawning I will end with only this,
the light on my path is the light I have wished.
For it has always been, to this girl who once could not see,
that the light that has been shining for I know it is ME.
So know this too, that it is within you~your light, your guide, your story so true.
It is only yours and no other can tell, your story is yours, so wear it well.
Stand tall, think big, & walk with pride,
for you are the only one, who knows your essence, its your ride.
Your journey is now, it’s grand and it’s fun,
It’s all yours to take hold of, your life
has just begun!
My blessings to everyone and all that shine and light the way for a new brighter day!